Friday, June 26, 2009

Hugs

The short embrace,
Of a hug,
Is so lasting,
So warm and snug,

I don’t know what I’d do,
I doubt I’d know what to say,
On the day if every comes,
My hugs just went away.

And yet I feel it,
Coming slowly round,
The professional world,
Not a hug to be found.

I’m so glad I’m here,
A teen in this day,
To show my affection,
A hug is all I have to say

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Here I sit

Alone I Sit,
Upon this wall,
I can see the ground beneath me,
It’s a long way to fall,

The Suns dying cry
Drowns my eyes in it’s light,
My thoughts turn inwards,
To things not as bright,

To see those things now,
As I could not before,
To cast light on horrid things,
Which I stand no more.

The thoughts I’ve harboured,
And the pain that I’ve caused,
All I wanted was to be close,
Now my whole life is paused,

Paused in these thoughts,
As the world walks this hall,
My mind like a projector,
Throwing pictures on the wall,

The world looks on,
Sees the sin of my soul,
How the mock and judge,
Tearing apart the whole,

Alone I Sit,
Upon this wall,
Alone I wait,
Await the fall,

My head tips backwards,
My body follows suite,
My hands grip tight the mortar,
Stopping my body, still I am not beat.

A lot left to give,
A lot left to say,
For any other person,
I’d give my life away.

Again my mind wanders,
Slowly Round and Round,
It settles upon an image,
Amongst dark memories was found,

Why again remind me of that?
I hated it then and I hate it now,
Why dredge it up again!
Sweat dripping from my brow

A Sick Dream has formed
Deep Inside my head,
Images of darkness
Conjure up the dread,
My Mind snaps back,
Again on this wall,
Slow slipping,
Beginning to fall.

Grasping the bricks tighter,
I regain my grip,
My grip on what?
Head starts to trip.

Questions fill me,
“Why am I here?”
Chasing round and round,
I am filled with fear

Lost are my friends,
Who I’ve Driven away,
Through deception and deceit,
It’s a just price to pay,

Why did I do it?
I don’t think I know,
To protect those I love,
Yet I’m alone in this dying glow

The suns last breath,
Upon this world,
Ignites my soul,
A new story unfurled,
Love driven out,
A life alone,
With out another,
to take seat on this thrown.

I deserve this place,
This cage, this cell,
It’s my own fault,
A self build hell

So alone I sit,
Love driven away,
It my yoke to bear,
Those I love; the ones I betray.

I have lost all sight,
Of what I once knew,
Took pleasure in things,
seeds of destruction that quickly grew

Consumed my life,
Enshrouded by fear,
a life which I had avoided
in which they now steer.

Alone I still sit,
Upon that wall,
No more fear,
I embrace the fall