The Game

finally free to speak,
but am unsure what to say,
theses feelings never fading,
but memories pass away,

i don't know what to do,
all meaning thrown away,
once again, alone,
not a place i should stay,

i wish there was something,
too grasp, too hold,
anything out there,
to help me break this mold,

life is a sacrifice,
and mine have been made,
all i ask is for relief,
for a cooling place in the shade,

too long I've played the game,
to long I've slipped in sin,
now i finally know the truth,
it's a game you never win.

It is movement, yet it's quiet,
the movement surrounding,
the voices inspiring
bringing to light feelings seldom felt,
twisting and turning, holding you tight,
it's grips so tightly that you can barely breath,
why do i deserve this?
a simple man should never hold one so beautiful...
a promise to return

Noise

NOISE

Shaking the shutters,
rattling the Pains,
shattering the silence,
filling our brains

NOISE

filling our lungs,
blockading our ears,
growing gradually louder,
teacher in tears.

NOISE

teaching gone quiet,
all learning cease,
the continual pounding
as headaches increase.

NOISE

CrAzY truck, please!
let us learn!
your chance had,
give us a turn!

silence

all noise gone,
as headache cease,
learning is resumed,
finally in peace.

THE Abstract Master

This abstract master,
Completely in control,
Nothing makes it faster,
It’s passing takes it’s toll.

Forever waiting,
Forever trying to rewind,
This controlling abstract,
This concept of time.

We are never ready,
We beg and pled for more,
Not careful with what’s given,
We all decided to ignore.

It completely surrounds us,
Totally Encapsulating man,
We rush around for it,
Trying to fit it to our own plan.

It won’t stop or slow,
Not for me or you,
Spend your time wisely,
It’s the only thing to do,

Don’t forget love,
Don’t forget friends,
Don’t forget to live
This life will end.

down wards spiralling up

What this now?
Back in to the fray,
I though I’d escaped,
Back into the light of day,

The night draws me back,
Like a ball down a hill,
Falling slowly into the pit,
Tear after tear I spill.

I wasted my time,
My effort, my life,
All for this, this nothing,
No escape from the strife.

Anything said,
Everything done,
I’ve only lost friends,
Now I have but one,

I feel so lost,
I feel so cold,
I refused to conform,
I broke the mold,

But here there in,
Only loneliness lay,
For all others have gone,
Not one would stay,
But who would stay
With a wretch like me?
Not man nor beast
Would answer my plea.

But one and yet three,
My last hope,
He will give me light,
And lead me to victory.

Governs my life,
Controls my being,
I give it all to him,
My life he is freeing,

From the bondage of sin,
From the clutches of earth,
my chains are broken,
a new life, a rebirth.

My lord, my God,
Forgive me my wrongs,
Let me live for you,
The life for which I long.

amen

I’m so sick and tired,
I always fall the wrong way,
Never find the right girl,
Try oh try as I may.

I change my look,
I change my style,
And yet they continue,
Marching out single file.

all I want is to connect,
to find some one that won’t reject,
Everything I do, everything I am,
I don’t want to be like tom, dick or Sam!

I just want to care,
To like me for me
Not try and change,
To some one I don’t want to be!

I want to love!
To be loved, Happy and true,
I just want some happiness!
So one to share with , like I am with you.

Oh poor forth wall,
I tear you down,
I had to make I rhyme,
So please don’t frown,

Back to the point,
Strait and true,
I want some one to love,
Some like you

Hugs

The short embrace,
Of a hug,
Is so lasting,
So warm and snug,

I don’t know what I’d do,
I doubt I’d know what to say,
On the day if every comes,
My hugs just went away.

And yet I feel it,
Coming slowly round,
The professional world,
Not a hug to be found.

I’m so glad I’m here,
A teen in this day,
To show my affection,
A hug is all I have to say